Like a laser beam

[bronwynrh]

Yeah. As if.

I have so much work to do, so much on my plate that requires focus. I want to do these things, I enjoy doing these things. I'm not trying to convince myself, here, I really do enjoy the benchwork. What I hate like nothing else is working through a set-up on paper, setting it up on the bench, getting to the end and then realizing - when it's almost too late - that I've forgotten something obvious.

Or, like I've done recently, I work on a problem for a while and think I have it solved. So I move ahead triumphantly only to realize that no - I missed something obvious. I adjust and move ahead, a little ashamed at missing the obvious but glad I caught it. . . . only to realize that it's still not working. Why? Because I missed something even more obvious that I should have caught the first time. This isn't ruining or hurting anything because I'm just trying to solve a puzzle that just may not be, well, solvable this way. (This is molecular cloning, for those of you in the know.)

All this has been happening whenever I really try to work on a new problem. I dunno, guys, if I'm getting stupid or if I'm just tired. I know I didn't start out stupid :-D

I have my current set of goals, so I know what I need to work on for now. Maybe the first thing I need to do is straighten things up and organize again. It's sounds like procrastination, but my desk is a mess right now, and I can't look at one task without seeing another one peeking out at me.

I really feel frizzled.

Mamma left Houston this morning. She's on her way up here to spend some time with me. We'll garden (Dave too!), take some walks, eat good food - I think Dave and I will take her to Spring Mill to see the caves - and of course I'll keep working and have a stay-at-home mom for a little while. I'm really looking forward to it.

Well, here's hoping for a successful day. I could use one.

Comments

[tonya.livejournal.com]

I hope your day goes well.
I've had days like you speak of, where you wake up and you just know it's going to be a long stressful day.

:)

[kendokamel.livejournal.com]

I feel your frustration. ):

All this has been happening whenever I really try to work on a new problem. I dunno, guys, if I'm getting stupid or if I'm just tired. I know I didn't start out stupid
I've been asking myself that same question...

I really feel frizzled.
Does anyone know if there's a collection bucket for all of the burned-out, frizzled-out, brain-dead, globs of jelly that used to be graduate students at this university...?

Well, here's hoping for a successful day. I could use one.
May you have a fulfilling and migraine-free day!

[tactile.livejournal.com]

I think you're just tired... probably in need of some bath and cuddle time.

When we're tired, so many things seem impossible to handle, or we make mistakes we'd normally look out for.

*hugs*

[bramey.livejournal.com]

You're probably right. I'll be getting the hugs and cuddles when mom gets here so maybe that'll help take some pressure off.

Thank you!

Re:

[tactile.livejournal.com]

I went to Roni and requested a hug this morning. She gave me the best one I've had in while and it really helped.

I really hope that you have a good time with your mom and her visit leaves you feeling refreshed.

[thatthingido.livejournal.com]

Have a successful day and a great visit with your mom!
Chris and I are determined to get you and Dave up here for Pride Week at the end of June.

[acoolsecretary.livejournal.com]

Enjoy your mother. SUCCESS to you today. :-)