Here, then gone
Sep. 12th, 2003 08:54 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bronwynrhSome things keep coming and going, coming and going. Some of these things are better here than when they're gone - others, I'd prefer they stayed gone.
A Certain Someone, for instance. I'd prefer the comings and goings, comings and goings, comings and . . . you get the picture . . . could cease and he was just here. All the time. It would be nice to be able to spend some, oh, normal time with him, passing the days in and days out together. No more counting down of days until we see each other, followed by the horrible counting down of hours until we'll be apart. You know what? We can do it if we have to, and we'll be just fine. Of this, I am sure. It's just one of those things :-)
Now, the horrible terrible awful stabbing pain in my tummy that comes and goes, but comes and stays for days. . . that, I could do without. I've been dealing with this one for months now, and I think it's safe to say that I'm fed up. Except I'm not really fed up with anything, because I'm not eating much. I'm still hovering around 110, according to my scale - haven't dropped below that mark yet - whereas I started in March at 132. Uhhhh yeah. I didn't do that on purpose. OUCH! Hard to eat when your tummy hurts so badly All. The. Time. Sometimes it feels better and I eat. Sometimes I just eat and it feels better. Sometimes I eat and it feels worse. Sometimes it just feels awful and I just don't even try.
I finally have an appointment with a specialist, but it's not for another 3 weeks! I'll keep you updated on how that goes, and share any gory details if they take any looks inside. *shiver*
Thank heaven I'll Jeff or Dave (right? right?) by my side in that event. Yeeks.
In the meantime, I keep plugging away at work. We're still waiting to hear back from the reviewers on my manuscript. We don't think we'll get spanked, but you just never know. I've been working on a few experiments in anticipation of possible criticisms, and also doing experiments on other projects that should round out one or two other manuscripts. It seems I should have several manuscripts to my name when I start writing my dissertation.
Holy shit, that's going to start SOON.
The job search will be starting within the next few months and the dissertation-writing will begin shortly after that, I think. I am finally entering the home stretch. At least, I can see it from here.
Wow.
A Certain Someone, for instance. I'd prefer the comings and goings, comings and goings, comings and . . . you get the picture . . . could cease and he was just here. All the time. It would be nice to be able to spend some, oh, normal time with him, passing the days in and days out together. No more counting down of days until we see each other, followed by the horrible counting down of hours until we'll be apart. You know what? We can do it if we have to, and we'll be just fine. Of this, I am sure. It's just one of those things :-)
Now, the horrible terrible awful stabbing pain in my tummy that comes and goes, but comes and stays for days. . . that, I could do without. I've been dealing with this one for months now, and I think it's safe to say that I'm fed up. Except I'm not really fed up with anything, because I'm not eating much. I'm still hovering around 110, according to my scale - haven't dropped below that mark yet - whereas I started in March at 132. Uhhhh yeah. I didn't do that on purpose. OUCH! Hard to eat when your tummy hurts so badly All. The. Time. Sometimes it feels better and I eat. Sometimes I just eat and it feels better. Sometimes I eat and it feels worse. Sometimes it just feels awful and I just don't even try.
I finally have an appointment with a specialist, but it's not for another 3 weeks! I'll keep you updated on how that goes, and share any gory details if they take any looks inside. *shiver*
Thank heaven I'll Jeff or Dave (right? right?) by my side in that event. Yeeks.
In the meantime, I keep plugging away at work. We're still waiting to hear back from the reviewers on my manuscript. We don't think we'll get spanked, but you just never know. I've been working on a few experiments in anticipation of possible criticisms, and also doing experiments on other projects that should round out one or two other manuscripts. It seems I should have several manuscripts to my name when I start writing my dissertation.
Holy shit, that's going to start SOON.
The job search will be starting within the next few months and the dissertation-writing will begin shortly after that, I think. I am finally entering the home stretch. At least, I can see it from here.
Wow.
