Now it's off to the races. . .
Oct. 15th, 2002 01:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bronwynrhWell, the proverbial races, that is.
Presentation is now out of the way (yay me) - It's on to other, bigger, better things. Like the viral genome replication course that Dave and I have to go to this evening. Sound like fun?
Well the fun part is the presentation and paper we have to prepare for that class. (why o why do I sign up for this stuff?!?)
Most important, though, is my thesis work. Now that I have the construct I've been waiting, hoping, struggling to get, I have a pile of experiments to do to test it out. With any luck (and a whole lotta work), I'll have a perfectly rounded-out publication-ready presentation when I go to Minneapolis in two weeks.
I'm gonna knock their socks off!!
If I sound like I'm on an ego-trip, I guess I kind of am. This whole Senior Grad Student (TM) thing is feeling pretty good right now.
Maybe some of you guys have been here before - maybe some of you are still waiting for it to happen. There comes a time when you start to realize your own worth. But you hesitate to acknowledge that realization - what if I'm fooling myself? what if I'm not as good at this as I think I've grown to become? - But then things start to change in the world outside your unsure mind. People start telling you what a great job you've done or you notice they start coming to you for advice, or you find yourself responsible for helping or teaching people who are where you were just a couple of years ago.
All of a sudden, that outside validation rings true with what your mind has been telling you for a few years already. Wham! Self-esteem, baby!
*snif* I'm growing up *snif*
I have $40 to my name, but dammit, I'm a grownup - and a smart one at that!
heh
Presentation is now out of the way (yay me) - It's on to other, bigger, better things. Like the viral genome replication course that Dave and I have to go to this evening. Sound like fun?
Well the fun part is the presentation and paper we have to prepare for that class. (why o why do I sign up for this stuff?!?)
Most important, though, is my thesis work. Now that I have the construct I've been waiting, hoping, struggling to get, I have a pile of experiments to do to test it out. With any luck (and a whole lotta work), I'll have a perfectly rounded-out publication-ready presentation when I go to Minneapolis in two weeks.
I'm gonna knock their socks off!!
If I sound like I'm on an ego-trip, I guess I kind of am. This whole Senior Grad Student (TM) thing is feeling pretty good right now.
Maybe some of you guys have been here before - maybe some of you are still waiting for it to happen. There comes a time when you start to realize your own worth. But you hesitate to acknowledge that realization - what if I'm fooling myself? what if I'm not as good at this as I think I've grown to become? - But then things start to change in the world outside your unsure mind. People start telling you what a great job you've done or you notice they start coming to you for advice, or you find yourself responsible for helping or teaching people who are where you were just a couple of years ago.
All of a sudden, that outside validation rings true with what your mind has been telling you for a few years already. Wham! Self-esteem, baby!
*snif* I'm growing up *snif*
I have $40 to my name, but dammit, I'm a grownup - and a smart one at that!
heh
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Date: October 15th, 2002 12:49 pm (UTC)As far as professional work and getting published and all... I'm still at that stage where I constantly second-guess myself, thinking, "Are they really into what I'm proposing here, or are they just smiling and nodding and then laughing at me the second I walk out of the office...?"
WAY TO GO!
Date: October 17th, 2002 05:30 pm (UTC)